....a year ago. She didn't pass, she just decided to stop being friends with me. I haven't spoken on this site about it at all because there is privacy which I like to retain once in a while. And I'm not really going to speak on it here, except as context.
She was my best friend. She was someone I considered a sister, and her abrupt and complete departure from my life shocked me, betrayed me, and left me with a hole. Not wanting sympathy here, just giving you context.
Since then.
Since then, I've organically gone outside myself. The many times I would've spent with her, I have started spending reaching out and getting to know others. Over the last year and a half, I've forged real and strong relationships with a variety of people. I've come to know a great many wonderful persons, who each bring something different into my life and who each excite me in a variety of ways.
I write this now, because I realized today that I've been stretched beyond my energy this week. How have I been stretched? In the most wonderful of ways. By the beautiful people I know who have reached out to me to spend time together. And I've realized that there is no longer a hole. There is only a blessing. I am blessed to have so many people that make me laugh, that touch my heart, and that accept and love me as I am, and want to spend time with me.
To any of you who've been dancing with me, rehearsed with me, played games with me, or had a drink with me: Gratitude. You are not taken for granted. You are appreciated.
"My cup runneth over."
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Love you Sister! Thanks for this!
ReplyDeleteLove you too!
DeleteCertainly in our culture friendship is more malleable than many would like. I sometimes confuse acquaintances with friends and am reminded of the difference when tribulations come.That being said, I doubt you take anything like this lightly and hope that your grieving process (which is what this is) will not be too burdensome.
ReplyDeleteThanks. My grieving process is complete now I think. This all happened almost two years ago. It's just more of a realization that the grieving process is over, and the appreciation of the beautiful people in my life now.
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